Have The Time Of Your Life,

It's time for you to start enjoying your life people. I swear, sometimes everyone is so preoccupied about stress and drama and stuff that is taking up all of their time, and they lost the fun in life. Life isn't always about working, you gotta make time for play to, or you're just gonna be lonely. Not to sound harsh or anything. I've seen people with no social life and trust, it's not a good thing. Aren't you kind of defeating the purpose of life when you don't make time? Isn't that why there are hobbies that cater to whatever interests you like? Why not get up and do something? Sure the sun may be to hot or the clouds may be too gloomy, but that's no reason to sit and mope the entire day. Go get and umbrella and sunblock or go make the sunshine appear. Life is glorious and has its fun in it. So why not enjoy it? You have the right to smile and life your youth out. You know those moments where you just smile and say, "Damn, I love life."? Well go have more of those!

I swear, my nights where I can't contain laughter because of the spontaneous adventure I just had, is the best. In fact, most nights where I am just breathing with the company of a friend inspires me to write and inspires me to just keep striving. I love the fact that whenever I have someone around me we make the best out of anything. Simplicity is pretty much the second key to my late night adventures, spontaneity is the first.

It's funny because on Friday, all we did was go to L.A. for a few minutes. We gazed at each light and the beautiful romantic architecture that has history in it and we were mesmorized by its pure spectacularness. It shocked us because every single wall, window, and door in L.A., may seem runned down to you or whoever but it's beautiful to me. My grandparents were a part of building what this city was back then, I'd like to think. Anyways, back to the story, so we are in the bright city and we get the idea to look for a haunted house, only to our knowledge that it had already been torn down. But we didn't get upset. We just partied in our seats and had a good time. Why get so worked up about things that aren't in your control. Have fun. Be happy you can laugh. My whole message of this post is just to tell you that sometimes the most smallest adventures or plans can impact you the deepest in the long run. For most, you'll get what I'm saying, if you don't understand, ask me, or question yourself.

Laughter is said to be the key to life. Keep that key in your back pocket.

--daviduh.

The Black Abyss,

We were best friends once,
I haven't talked to you in months,
I got your text the other day,
It made the pain forever stay,
We'll never be close again,
That seems like a bargain,
You had always hurt me through the years,
Constantly questioning my motives and putting in fears,
Never in your life will you see more tears,
I wish I stood up to you long ago,
Maybe then you wouldn't be a foe,
I hate you so much all I see is vertigo,
You disgust me with every inch,
It's funny, I've even memorized your pleasant stench,
You'll never be there for me ever,
Guess were destined to be best friends for never,
But the worst of all of this,
Is that you're the only one I seem to miss,

My heart's just one dark abyss.
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You probably won't know who this is about. It's not something that I talk about to just anyone. It's not someone who is around me. It's not necessarily a friend. It's just someone that isn't there anymore. I kinda wanna dedicate this poem to that person that this is about. I hope you read every word and feel the pain I've gone through these past months. You know, each day that I awake, I think of all the bad first. You have brought so much stress, pain, tears, and selfishness into not just mine but so many other peoples' lives. We all loved you with all of our hearts. You've been the same person ever since I can remember. Even when we were little. Guess what, you'll never hear from me again. Don't call me, don't text me. Get out once and for all. You're just making everything worse. I wish that we were never so close, because everytime I'm sad or start to think, I really miss all of our memories. And it hurts me to think that we are never allowed to have anymore of those because of you. YOU YOU YOU. You got your wish. You have all the attention you want. Now leave me alone.
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Please don't fuck up like this...

--daviduh.

Everybodys Got To Grow Up Sometime,

So this year, I am entering my final year of high school. I'm nervous. I'm excited. I'm scared. I'm happy. I'm panicky. I'm every emotion in the English dictionary.

Through each year, I have matured and have grown up. I have learned valuable lessons about myself and the things or people I surround myself in. Things have gone terribly wrong and have gone amazingly right. Even if I could go back and change each bad thing, I wouldn't. Wanna know why? Because those bad things, those faults, are lessons in disguise for me. They've made me who I am. I've shed things while in the process but I've gained even more. It feels like everything is just beginning for me. And I am ready for every little bit of it to occur. I am ready to start working at my hopes, my dreams. I am ready to prove every single person whoever doubted me. And I'm ready to inspire and motivate.

All my life I have vowed to change something in the world. I want my life to be successful but I don't neccesarily want to just make money. I wanna change the world. I'm taking steps to help people out and maybe just maybe will that be changing the world. I want to establish things for which people are benefiting from it. I have all my future on a map and planned out.

However, I may be excited for something out of the ordinary to pop out...

Class of 2010 and 2011 or just anyone in particular struggling in the real world or who are ready for the real world. Get ready, because we have a long journey. You've got to trust yourself and find that independence you have been dreaming about. As bad as it is to say, not everyone who is helping you now is going to be there for you in the future. Make the best out of it. And do not, for one second, take your hopes or dreams for granted. Live them out, because you deserve every last bit of them to come true. You have worked so very hard to maintain where each and everyone of you are right now. You'll be fine, I promise.

I know we still have another year left of high school, but that seems like it's right around the corner. We have so much reality to face in just a year. We get to see what it all looks like. But the saddest thing, is that we may lose each other on the way.

But that's okay, all you have to do is extend your helping hand, and you've got yourself a friend. It's gonna be hard, but I am so ready. I've never thought I would be sitting here, excited for what is in store for me. I never thought I'd get the chills thinking about what's going to happen. I never thought, I'd be here. Content. Happy. Living. Breathing. This beautiful life.

We're almost there...

--daviduh.

That's What Friends Are For, Right?

Ah, the blessing of friendship. It's great isn't it. That you can share the same values, morals, ideas, music, and a variety of other interests together. Kinda like you met yourself. You develop best friends, friends, and aquaintences. And in between all, you better watch your back. It's harsh to say, but every category holds a secret. You have to make sure that your friends don't spill on you. But I have to tell you, if friends are willing to sell you out or talk shit, then they are nothing to you. It is the worst when someone you thought was your friend, someone you love and care about, is the one starting all this nonsense about you. We all had that friend. And we cut them free. It's your turn now...Because lies and deceit is not friendship. It's hate.

Rumors and bitchiness is not the only thing facing friendship. A big problem that came to my attention by a friend is that sometimes friends make that promise in the beginning of their blossoming friendship and repeatedly tell each other that they will always be there for one another. But then, when it comes down to it, your darkest days, when you need that friend, isn't there. How are you supposed to function? I mean sometimes I get that people are busy with school and work but isn't there time? Time in between? If I just told you I needed help, would you seriously not offer me it? Are you that busy that you can't listen to me? Really?

What has it all come to nowadays? We can't even be there for each other is our own pain and bad days. We can even listen to each other? Friendship is about caring. It's about listening to one another just because you need that shoulder to cry on. If you're really facing this problem, my advice is, reach out and tell your friend or friends how you are feeling. If you're hurt because their lack of listening, then don't sit down and be mopey. Get up, brighten your day, and talk about it. What good is keeping it in? Another thing, if your sad about your friends doing such things to you, keeping it in won't help them to improve it. It's all about communication lovelies.

You know, a friend once said, and I couldn't agree more with them one hundred and ten percent. This friend has taught me so much about myself and situations. This friend has hurt along with me. This friend, is a friend. Anyways, she bluntly and very honestly said, "Don't pretend to give a fuck, when you really don't." No need to talk about it. It has its own message.

But don't get me wrong...All friendship isn't bad. In fact, I have some of the most spectacular friends anyone could ask for. I have developed into who I am today because of all these people. I have called each person that I could trust and they listened. Yeah, they were there when others won't. They helped me overcome it. I cannot go on about the constant gratitude I have for each and every one of you. I feel like when I am in front of my friends, I can be me. I can actually be who I am. Isn't that what it's all about? Living your life the way you want it? And people that help you understand the true meaning of that, that's friendship.

Real friendship is love. Find that love. Or let it find you.

--daviduh.

Our Struggles Are Our Stories,

We fight for it all now a days, don't we? Whether it be for a hope or a dream. A job, or an education. Acceptance or love. Family or friends. We struggle with it all. We fight to keep whats balanced. We tough it all out to be happy. To see the light at the end of our long tunnel. All we see is dark when we struggle. We keep it in, never let it out. It eats at us each and every day. So why do we allow it?

You have to open up and tell your story. Do not hide behind it. Release all the pain from within you and you will be gone. Gone with yourself. If that makes sense to you. Free from all the pain and hurt that we may have established ourselves.

I know that struggles are hard to overcome or to see optimism in them, but there is. You have bad days and you have good days. Maybe today was a bad day, and maybe tomorrow is a bad day, but that's why there are 7 days a week and days worth 24 hours and 12 months in a 365 day year. You have all these endless possiblilities and you have to think of it that way. You have to look and see how much potential you have. Most of all you cannot give up on life, or yourself.

Why is it that when we are in a rut, we give up? We give up on ourselves. WHY?

We need to realize that we are amazing individuals and damn right do we have the right to claim it. We have each been through something that makes us a hero, and a right to claim that. We have stories that other people cannot claim, but they appreciate us for going through it and sharing it. We can relate to one another with each and every struggle we have been through. And remember struggles are not permanent. They are just a temporary thing. I know it is very hard to see light in your situation right now, but trust me there is. You have a friend or friends, family always beside you. But you know what you have the most? You. You have you, and that's all you need.

Before you go and think of how other people have impacted or inspired your life. Know how you have impacted other's lives and how big of an inspiration you are to people. Think of the impact you made on the world and on yourself. So raise up. Don't slump. You're gonna make it, because you are a hero. That's right. A real life modern day American hero. And you have every right to claim it. You have every right...

Your stories are beautiful. They make you who you have become today. Just remember that...

So what's next, hero?

--daviduh.

You Can't Always Help What You Feel,

Yeah. I know. Totally difficult right?

I swear somedays you wake up thinking about the same exact person you went to sleep thinking about. Somedays you wish there were an on and off switch for this feeling. Don't you wish there were some type of medicine there for you to take and *POOF, feelings are gone. Why is it that whenever you tell yourself to stop thinking, you think more?

That is because you aren't thinking, you're feeling. Your emotions are on a whole other level. You cannot control how you feel. Your feelings are just there. Don't think of them as a hinderance, because they're not. They are there to tell you what is right and what is wrong and to tell you who is right and who is wrong.

Someone told me the other day, "What if you could just wake up one day and be fine. No thoughts or feelings for this person. How would it feel?"

Would we still be the same in a way? Is it weird to say that that person may actually be a piece of who we are today? I don't think it is at all. I think it is natural when you have legit feelings for another person that they sometimes are a piece of who you have become today. Yeah, it is a big thing to say that someone is a part of you, but your feelings are telling you the same thing. If you didn't feel for this person, then you wouldn't care for them, or what happens, or fifty other things.

There really is no advice to this subject but to keep on moving with your head up. Things may not work out for you but the bonus is that the feelings will slowly subside. The vulnerability you have right now is so incredible. Use that for your advantage. Use all the anxiety, love, and fear and produce something beautiful. You have a light that no one else possesses. And who knows maybe that light may attract someone...

Feel the love. Don't think it.

--daviduh.

Update!

So, if you haven't noticed, the blog got a bit of a transformation done...

I felt like it was time for a change. Changes have been occurring in my life lately, so I have decided, hey, why not change the blog too. In addition, I will be posting columns on life and such from now on, give or take...

Things are happening so fast right now, it's a bit hard to manage. I've always stayed true to myself though. In this process of life, I haven't taken things for granted. Instead, I have learned very important life lessons and have learned how to apply them to my life. I'm trying hard. I'm looking up without looking down.

So why start now you may ask?

I am sick and tired of being in the gutter. I want to be happy and optimistic. And also help you guys out. I have so much to say, and to gain.

It's the same blog, just a different design, attitude, and purpose. Blogs will still be derived from the same place sillies!

I would greatlty appreciate suggestions on some of the things that you guys want to hear about. I have realized sometimes it is nice hearing things said in a different perspective or heard from another struggling with the same thing.

Poems will be added on some days as well, just because I love to write!

So let the summer begin with a bang and a good blog! Senior year, here I come!

Hey, on a scale from one to ten, I'm pretty sure I'm an '11! Haha.

Enjoy.

--daviduh.

Here,

Inspiration dwindles within us,
Suffaction is beneath us,
Both looking for freshness and air,
Hoping we'll look up; that seems fair,
With so much to gain, and so little to lose,
Finding ideas from pain,
So many, its hard to choose,
We struggle, but for what?
Don't even question, which, and or but.
Just walk down the path and look through our surroundings,
All we're hoping for is just a little bit of foundings,
We pick out our hopes and dreams,
They shine as bright as lightning beams,
And somehow we make it,
Maybe we fake it,
But we always find a way to inspire,
It may be passion or desire,
So many questions, we don't wanna answer,
They ask, "How you do you deal?
"How's that make you feel?"
We give them a grin and say, "It makes me feel here, it makes me feel here."
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I dedicate that to everyone who will read this. Whether you get it or not. It's how I feel about us as an entirety. As a group. We all have stories that makes us who we are. Whether they be good or not, it's time to stop hiding. It's time to feel something. Just something...

We all make it through this harsh life day by day. It gets harder each step we take, but in the end when we look back on the view, we'll get it.

--daviduh.

GivingUp,

There are days where you wanna throw your hands above and scream at the top of your fragile lungs, "I GIVE UP!" The days where the breaths you take seem short, and pointless. You want to scream into a pillow, but you can't find one, you become relentless and distressed. Your pang becomes aparent and you try to hide your turbulence. The sympathy from others makes the chaos even worse. You crave a remedy to your aches and bruises, but it seems to be nonexistent. Where do you go from here?

Is it a panic attack in silence we are having when we have these days? We feel lethargic and empty. In a way, I think moments where we want to give up, we try to convince ourselves that there is no solution. We tend to feel sympathy for ourselves, and that angers us even more and grows to the problem. Emotions flair up into our minds and we cannot stop thinking! We pace back and forth through our own thoughts. Confusion splurs, and we feel lost.

We have all felt such moments once. Whatever it may be, we must overcome it. The simplest answer I have, is to hold on, and to realize that you have such vividness in your life. You have amazing people to support you when you feel as if you failed. And though it seems as if you did fail, you have not, you have just learned.

If you do not want to open up, your hole will grow deeper. Your problem will not cease, and may splurge into a list of other dramatic issues. You have to get rid of your struggle one way or another. If you are scared of sympathy, as I am sometimes, release it into something you are passionate in. Cry if you need. But DO NOT GIVE UP!

You have so much to live for. You have so much you can touch and change. YOU DO, YOU DO! You have the right to live for everything you choose.

Problems are only temporary, but the love and sunshine that is in your life, whether it be little or not, it is ALWAYS there.

--daviduh.