That's What Friends Are For, Right?

Ah, the blessing of friendship. It's great isn't it. That you can share the same values, morals, ideas, music, and a variety of other interests together. Kinda like you met yourself. You develop best friends, friends, and aquaintences. And in between all, you better watch your back. It's harsh to say, but every category holds a secret. You have to make sure that your friends don't spill on you. But I have to tell you, if friends are willing to sell you out or talk shit, then they are nothing to you. It is the worst when someone you thought was your friend, someone you love and care about, is the one starting all this nonsense about you. We all had that friend. And we cut them free. It's your turn now...Because lies and deceit is not friendship. It's hate.

Rumors and bitchiness is not the only thing facing friendship. A big problem that came to my attention by a friend is that sometimes friends make that promise in the beginning of their blossoming friendship and repeatedly tell each other that they will always be there for one another. But then, when it comes down to it, your darkest days, when you need that friend, isn't there. How are you supposed to function? I mean sometimes I get that people are busy with school and work but isn't there time? Time in between? If I just told you I needed help, would you seriously not offer me it? Are you that busy that you can't listen to me? Really?

What has it all come to nowadays? We can't even be there for each other is our own pain and bad days. We can even listen to each other? Friendship is about caring. It's about listening to one another just because you need that shoulder to cry on. If you're really facing this problem, my advice is, reach out and tell your friend or friends how you are feeling. If you're hurt because their lack of listening, then don't sit down and be mopey. Get up, brighten your day, and talk about it. What good is keeping it in? Another thing, if your sad about your friends doing such things to you, keeping it in won't help them to improve it. It's all about communication lovelies.

You know, a friend once said, and I couldn't agree more with them one hundred and ten percent. This friend has taught me so much about myself and situations. This friend has hurt along with me. This friend, is a friend. Anyways, she bluntly and very honestly said, "Don't pretend to give a fuck, when you really don't." No need to talk about it. It has its own message.

But don't get me wrong...All friendship isn't bad. In fact, I have some of the most spectacular friends anyone could ask for. I have developed into who I am today because of all these people. I have called each person that I could trust and they listened. Yeah, they were there when others won't. They helped me overcome it. I cannot go on about the constant gratitude I have for each and every one of you. I feel like when I am in front of my friends, I can be me. I can actually be who I am. Isn't that what it's all about? Living your life the way you want it? And people that help you understand the true meaning of that, that's friendship.

Real friendship is love. Find that love. Or let it find you.

--daviduh.

Our Struggles Are Our Stories,

We fight for it all now a days, don't we? Whether it be for a hope or a dream. A job, or an education. Acceptance or love. Family or friends. We struggle with it all. We fight to keep whats balanced. We tough it all out to be happy. To see the light at the end of our long tunnel. All we see is dark when we struggle. We keep it in, never let it out. It eats at us each and every day. So why do we allow it?

You have to open up and tell your story. Do not hide behind it. Release all the pain from within you and you will be gone. Gone with yourself. If that makes sense to you. Free from all the pain and hurt that we may have established ourselves.

I know that struggles are hard to overcome or to see optimism in them, but there is. You have bad days and you have good days. Maybe today was a bad day, and maybe tomorrow is a bad day, but that's why there are 7 days a week and days worth 24 hours and 12 months in a 365 day year. You have all these endless possiblilities and you have to think of it that way. You have to look and see how much potential you have. Most of all you cannot give up on life, or yourself.

Why is it that when we are in a rut, we give up? We give up on ourselves. WHY?

We need to realize that we are amazing individuals and damn right do we have the right to claim it. We have each been through something that makes us a hero, and a right to claim that. We have stories that other people cannot claim, but they appreciate us for going through it and sharing it. We can relate to one another with each and every struggle we have been through. And remember struggles are not permanent. They are just a temporary thing. I know it is very hard to see light in your situation right now, but trust me there is. You have a friend or friends, family always beside you. But you know what you have the most? You. You have you, and that's all you need.

Before you go and think of how other people have impacted or inspired your life. Know how you have impacted other's lives and how big of an inspiration you are to people. Think of the impact you made on the world and on yourself. So raise up. Don't slump. You're gonna make it, because you are a hero. That's right. A real life modern day American hero. And you have every right to claim it. You have every right...

Your stories are beautiful. They make you who you have become today. Just remember that...

So what's next, hero?

--daviduh.

You Can't Always Help What You Feel,

Yeah. I know. Totally difficult right?

I swear somedays you wake up thinking about the same exact person you went to sleep thinking about. Somedays you wish there were an on and off switch for this feeling. Don't you wish there were some type of medicine there for you to take and *POOF, feelings are gone. Why is it that whenever you tell yourself to stop thinking, you think more?

That is because you aren't thinking, you're feeling. Your emotions are on a whole other level. You cannot control how you feel. Your feelings are just there. Don't think of them as a hinderance, because they're not. They are there to tell you what is right and what is wrong and to tell you who is right and who is wrong.

Someone told me the other day, "What if you could just wake up one day and be fine. No thoughts or feelings for this person. How would it feel?"

Would we still be the same in a way? Is it weird to say that that person may actually be a piece of who we are today? I don't think it is at all. I think it is natural when you have legit feelings for another person that they sometimes are a piece of who you have become today. Yeah, it is a big thing to say that someone is a part of you, but your feelings are telling you the same thing. If you didn't feel for this person, then you wouldn't care for them, or what happens, or fifty other things.

There really is no advice to this subject but to keep on moving with your head up. Things may not work out for you but the bonus is that the feelings will slowly subside. The vulnerability you have right now is so incredible. Use that for your advantage. Use all the anxiety, love, and fear and produce something beautiful. You have a light that no one else possesses. And who knows maybe that light may attract someone...

Feel the love. Don't think it.

--daviduh.

Update!

So, if you haven't noticed, the blog got a bit of a transformation done...

I felt like it was time for a change. Changes have been occurring in my life lately, so I have decided, hey, why not change the blog too. In addition, I will be posting columns on life and such from now on, give or take...

Things are happening so fast right now, it's a bit hard to manage. I've always stayed true to myself though. In this process of life, I haven't taken things for granted. Instead, I have learned very important life lessons and have learned how to apply them to my life. I'm trying hard. I'm looking up without looking down.

So why start now you may ask?

I am sick and tired of being in the gutter. I want to be happy and optimistic. And also help you guys out. I have so much to say, and to gain.

It's the same blog, just a different design, attitude, and purpose. Blogs will still be derived from the same place sillies!

I would greatlty appreciate suggestions on some of the things that you guys want to hear about. I have realized sometimes it is nice hearing things said in a different perspective or heard from another struggling with the same thing.

Poems will be added on some days as well, just because I love to write!

So let the summer begin with a bang and a good blog! Senior year, here I come!

Hey, on a scale from one to ten, I'm pretty sure I'm an '11! Haha.

Enjoy.

--daviduh.