Didn'tYouKnow,

I look back upon the life I have lived and I remember,

All the travesties and pain that surfaced each year.

How I pushed and fought back, I have no idea,

Because now, I haven’t the strength to persevere.

Persevere through all the chaotic moments that ruled my life,

Damaged my heart, and spit it back up.

Ups and downs and turnarounds,

That is all I had guaranteed.

Guaranteed lack of intellect and abrasiveness,

Belligerent thoughts and words foaming up at the mouth.

Mouth full of insults aimed and pointed at my back,

Stung so bad that I nearly fell on the ground.

Ground of pure lava that’s what my days felt like,

So bad I just wanted to lay away the immense pain.

Pain and sorrow,

Those were my two best friends.

Friends? What are those;

I did not know,

Know about all the struggling? Maybe,

But yet that didn’t stop the shadows from stealing my light.
Light at the end of the tunnel,

Where is that thing?

Thing of hope that seemed nearly unattainable until my days came to nights,

That is when I was safe.

Safe and sound underneath the blankets,

I was so tired.

Tired of fighting and tearing up what optimism I had left,

Was there any more to spare?

Flash forward and now it is all over,

I guess all that wishing out of dread paid off.

Off and on life no more,

I feel bliss for once.

Once upon a time there lived a scarred being,

But you already knew that.